Eilania's Blog!

2009-05-27T17:13:00.003+08:00

I am finally back to blog again! Hahaha.

NEW QUOTE IS UP!!!

Talking about quotes, I saw this really funny quote just now that made me burst out laughing:
Most people are only alive because it is illegal to shoot them.
Hahaha. It made me smile, and I hope it'll be the same for you!

And then, this song came to my head...

TRUE COLOURS - CYNDI LAUPER
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
Don't be unhappy
Can't remember when I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow

I dedicate this song to all my loved ones!
My family, my friends, my Dear, and also, to myself! =))

2009-04-09T06:05:00.001+08:00

As pestered by Vera again and again and again, hahaha, here are some photos of her birthday celebration this year!

Birthday girl Vera!

The birthday present we got her! Her love for manicure =)

Dinner at 1 Twenty Six...

So yeah, here you go! This entry is posted specially for you, Vera! Hope you enjoyed yourself on your birthday! =))

2009-04-02T23:32:00.003+08:00

The best time of all is right now.
I am gradually forgetting this important principle of life, I admit. It seems like I am starting to take things/people for granted; not appreciating my loved ones as much as before.
I have no idea what's happening to me these few days. Don't worry people, it's nothing serious. Hahaha. Just feel that something is rather wrong with me recently, and it doesn't feel good. But I am glad, because I know, now that I have realised and reflected, things will not get from bad to worse, it will only get better. Hee.

To me, what I have mentioned in the first line of this entry, is perhaps one of the most important principles of life. As I have read somewhere some time ago, the way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.

Why the sudden revelation? Thanks to the movie, Bucket List, I would say. Hahaha. Watched it yesterday and wow it's really a great show. Inspired and enlightened me, made me think a lot.

And then the song by Ronan Keating, If Tomorrow Never Comes, had to start playing from my playlist as I blog. Hahaha. But yeah, it is indisputable, that the future is indeed unpredictable. So, I believe we all know what to do and what not to do, for us to never ever have to regret. Here goes.

IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES - RONAN KEATING
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and
Lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them
Never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance
To tell her how I feel

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

To my family, my friends, and my one and only Dear...
I love you. And gosh, how much I miss you. Thank you so much for everything. I am such a blessed, such a lucky girl, because I have you. Stay wonderful, my loved ones =))

As I end this entry, I am slowly but surely turning into the better Eilania; the one whom even I myself love. Hahaha. Go away, unbearable Eilania. Even I cannot stand you. Hahahahaha.
Well, I believe in what they say...
When you're finished improving, you're finished.

Once this entry is posted, I will start to treasure and cherish my loved ones and every single thing, so so much, just like before, or even more. No more taking for granted, much more appreciation.

Gosh, I feel so liberated, so good! =))

2009-03-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

NEW QUOTE IS UP!!!

I am bored but I don't feel like blogging so BYEBYE.

Hahaha =p

2009-03-16T07:47:00.011+08:00

GOOD MORNING WORLD!!!

Hahaha it's really rare that I am awake so early in the morning and actually blogging... So I'm hyper!

Alrighty updates updates updates on the month of February!

Shauna's and Bong's birthdays celebration!

The customised bear we got for Shauna a long time ago!

With the cute birth certificate!

And! I have been spending a lot of time with Dear and his family recently! More than before, and more than my family. Hmmmm. Well, all I know is that I enjoy being with them so so much! I guess I get much of the family feeling over there, which is what's lacking at home right now. Sigh. Ohwell! Thank you so much! For making me feel like family, for making me feel welcomed! It feels really good! I love all of you! Really wonderful parents you have got, Dear. And you are just like your father, which is a good thing! Hahaha.
So yeah, have been doing much stuff together with them, which I so hope to be able to do with mine. But good enough! Here are some photos!

That's Jade! Clifford's youngest sister! She's so pretty and adorable and sweet isn't it! Very photogenic too!

A photo of Pepper at their house, taken by Jade!

Ooooh and Valentine's Day!
I would say, it was the day when Dear and I realised for real, the eventual beauty of love, acceptance and simplicity! How we have grown and learnt over time and over trials!

HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYBODY!!!

2009-03-13T18:24:00.010+08:00

Sometimes, all it takes, is the courage to pursue happiness =))

I got this above inspiration from Perfect Cut 2; the blockbuster on Channel U. I really think it is a wonderful show, and this is rare. Hahaha. It is not only entertaining, but more importantly, it is inspiring. Every episode brings enlightenment. It is too nice to be missed, so people, do watch if you can. You will be glad you did. Hahaha.
Oh man, why do I sound like I'm paid to say all these. Hahaha! I am not, okay!

Anyways, Thank you Dear, for the pretty pink rose! After so long, it has aged really gracefully, and I am rather surprised yet happy! Hahaha.

So yeah, decided to post this photo up as 'a tribute' to the inspiring quote I learnt! Really...

-We only live once, and I believe none of us will want to live in regret. So, as much as it seems difficult, be brave and pursue happiness. There is no need to fear. Fear hinders the greatest things in life, I realised. And when you give it a shot, it doesn't seem so difficult anymore, because we grow stronger with every step forward.

-Try, there is no harm trying. At least if you really fail, you know that you have tried your best, so there's nothing to be upset about anymore. And if you succeed, you will be really happy you overcame your fear and gave it all your best. It is all worth it.

-Go for happiness, go for what you love, what you want, what you need, what you care about, what you miss, what you know will make you happy. There is no need to deny and escape from your true thoughts and feelings. There is no need to lie to yourself, or force yourself to get rid of thoughts and feelings you know you cannot eliminate. Know what you want, that's the most important. Don't have to be ashamed, shy, or too embarrassed to admit what/who you really need in life to live on.

-But of course, what is also important, is to be contented with what you have. Don't be greedy. Nobody is perfect, and there's always higher mountains out there. So make do, compromise, accept, as long as you are sure you are really happy. Don't expect too much. Not everybody can climb to the peak of the highest mountain, so why go for something so difficult and tiring, wasting precious time and effort, and make yourself and everyone else around you suffer? And sometimes, the higher the mountain, the greater the fall.

Well, I hope my reflections and revelations will benefit all of you who read this post.
As for me, I am just really happy that Dear and I are given yet another chance to be courageous and pursue our happiness. Am going to give it all our best, I believe. It is all worth it. This wonderful opportunity that came knocking once again on our doors is really really rare, I know. And so, I really am very appreciative of everything and really grateful. Ahhh. Sometimes, when you really love someone, it just makes you ridiculously brave.

So people, go for your happiness!!!

2009-03-02T04:02:00.005+08:00

Was looking through my photos and here are some of them! Taken during the Chinese New Year Eve reunion dinner!

Siti is so shy and cute!

My dad, my dad's childhood friend Uncle Teo, and my youngest uncle, Uncle Shawn!

Uncle Shawn and family! They all look alike, I know. Hahaha.

Chinese New Year Eve reunion dinner was great. We spent most of the time guessing really lame riddles (always happens when my Dad is around, hahaha!) and Siti and I kept disturbing each other! She cannot eat pork and I cannot eat seafood, you see. Hahaha. It was much fun. I love Siti!

Then we headed to VivoCity to catch a movie. The whole lot of us, and Dear came to join us! I am so glad you did! On the way there, my family had lots of fun and laughed so hard in the car, our stomachs were in pain and we were all tearing! All thanks to the forever comical Uncle Teo. Hahaha.

The next day was visiting! I still love packing red packets for my mother, I don't know why. Maybe because it's not my money and I don't feel the pain yet. Hahaha. Went to Grandma's place for dinner and gosh her popiah is still the best in the world! Love it!

Let's see, what else...

Oh! And on a Sunday, went to Rena's house to visit! Haven't been to her house for the longest time; many years, I believe, and I missed it badly! Here are some photos!

Rena and her vibrating HUAT AH! cushion. Hahaha. I miss you already Rena! =(

Like this candid photo!

And of course... A wonderful photo of Anting and Chinghui! Hahaha I can forsee you scolding me irritating again, Anting! Really nice photo though, sweet couple!

So yeah, talked to Rau Mama a little when I first got there and I really love her, she's like another mother to me. She's always so adorable, really! It was great seeing Rau Papa too, after sooooooo long!
Well, we ate, and gambled like they always do during Chinese New Year, hahaha. It was a very happy day for me! Many classic moments I will never forget, as usual. Hahaha. Thank you my awesome 'siblings'! =)

Alrighty time to go! Bye!

2009-02-15T18:50:00.004+08:00

Dear, we had so much fun and laughter that day eh? But we should never ever go back there for their food! Hahaha. Unless they have BoLoBao! =))
HAPPINESS!!!

P.S. New quote is up, people!

2009-02-12T03:44:00.003+08:00

I am having insomnia again and I don't know why! ARGH.
I woke up early enough today to be tired by now but I just can't sleep. This is annoying!

And yes, so, here I am, again.

4th of January was the day when my life suddenly and unexpectedly turned for the better. I would say, it's the most pleasant surprise ever. Some things, perhaps, will never ever change. And for now, I can safely say that I am really glad that it is so. I hope I am right, and that till the day I die, I will still be smiling =))

Anyways, I started working on the first week of January. Just half-day. Babysitting 5-year-old kids at one of my parents' childcare centres, and once in a while, helping out with administrative work and accounts at the office.
I don't like the job. Hahaha.
I prefer babysitting 2-year-old kids like last time, with Andrea. It was so much fun, right Andrea? We should work together again some day!
Well, I guess working there does affect me positively in many ways. I learnt quite a lot. Like the fact that I cannot have a routine and mundane job in the future because I cannot take it, hahaha. Of course, effective ways to discipline my kids in the future, and skills/knowledge I need when I take over the business next time. I guess observing what's really going on in childcare centres does help.

And... I actually have work in a few hours' time, I have no idea what I am doing here so yeah, byeeeeeeee!

2009-02-08T06:19:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep so here I am!

Looking back at what happened recently, I suddenly feel very appreciative of my parents. I am really grateful to have them. I am indeed blessed. They have no qualms when it comes to communication with honesty, which are essential elements in life. They have guided me on the right and decent path all this while, and I believe they will continue to do so. As much as I have been angry about their guidance at times, I came to realise how silly and ignorant I have been, how important they are, how significant their advice were. I am who I am, and what I am today, because of my wonderful parents.
Thank you Papa, Mama. I love you both forever and ever. So so much.
And I have decided, that from this second onwards, I will try my very best at all times to show them how much I appreciate them, how grateful I am, how great they are, and how much I love them. Since I haven't been doing so for the past 19 years of my life.
It starts now.

Well well, I remember 3rd of January was a very very long day for me. Long day of fun, though. It was really enjoying every minute of my holidays to the maximum. Hahaha.
First there was singing with Shauna, Jeremy, Bong, Patricia and Fina. Despite having so many karaoke sessions together already, it was still so much fun. Sometimes I wonder why. Hahaha. Shauna says it's a time of release for her. Patricia sings like some Hollywood star, really.
Then I went to meet my lovely Rena! So glad to be able to see her after such a looooong time! Had a nice dinner with her at Balcony, caught up with each other quite a lot, which was great, and realising the good change in her. Heee. Oh and how can I forget! When she dropped the bomb on me telling me that Anting and Chinghui are together, I was so shocked! That was the most shocking news I ever heard, I would say. My mouth and eyes were left open for about 30 seconds really! I was speechless. Hahaha. I couldn't believe it, just like the others. But! It was a pleasant surprise! I am really happy for the both of you, whom I look up to as my older siblings that take care of me like your little sister ever since last time. You two are compatible in many ways. Best wishes! I wish you both happiness! =))
And after having fun with Rena and her friends, I actually went singing again! Hahaha. This time, I enjoyed myself because I just sat there most of the time and listened to the soon-to-be-Taiwan-female-singer do her thing. Her voice is amazing. Then we had breakfast and I learnt much about faith, letting things be, and such, which I will remember for life. I came to realise almost instantly that it's all true, not bullshit. And I am so glad I did.

Wow it's quite a long entry. I shall end here then!

Love you Rena!

2009-02-07T19:31:00.000+08:00

MY HEAD IS KILLING ME =((

2009-02-02T23:00:00.003+08:00

Okay time to update!

I should just finish updating about 2008 once and for all so I can move on with 2009! Hahaha.

So....
There was Christmas. A party at my place. Quite an eventful night, I would say. Most of us played poker with others just chilling. I just realised that the photos are all not with me anymore, so I shall just post one lovely photo of Pepper with the Christmas tree. Heeee.

And then there was New Year. A countdown party at my place. It was much more fun as compared to the Christmas party. Guess I realised what works and what doesn't. Hahaha. We all learn from mistakes.
Had much crazy fun playing brainless games with great music. Played Pictionary too, and Andrea, we rock! Hahaha. Oh and I still cannot believe you didn't recognise Yulin! Hahaha another classic joke!
Then there was mahjong, as usual, and I have never ever played so much mahjong continuously! But it was good fun!

So yeah there you go, guess I'm done with 2008!
GOOOOOOOD =))

2009-01-25T03:05:00.003+08:00

ETERNAL FLAME - THE BANGLES
Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Is this burning an eternal flame

I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame

Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Close your eyes
Give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame

I love you =))